(i really need to start keeping this as like, a journal. i have been severely depressed and reclusive since the election last year. it is problematic; i have gained 30lbs. i am ashamed of my appearance/weight gain, to the point i don’t want to see friends or family members. i don’t want to leave the house to even get groceries. i dropped out of school. maybe this will help, idk. i often say i’m going to start keeping a journal again (stopped when i was 17/18 after my parents searched for, found, and read my journal. i am still bitter about it to this day, though i don’t hold it against them).